Winter’s Price

Winter Crone

Bitter tears unspilled scorch the throat
Frozen anger burning, making me choke
Feeling bitter, cold, uncaring, tough,
I want to run, hide, give up – had enough.
Oh Child, child, can you not see –
Winter’s Beginning has a grasp upon thee
What you have been given in Summer and Spring
Has it’s Price that I am now exacting
The Crone whispers with Her knowing smile
Every year I forget Her Price for a while
She is the balance of Light and Energy,
Yet always Her Winter resides deep within me.
You are my Daughter; I am in your bones,
Your Heart and Mind thrum with the tones
Of Spring’s gentle opening, Summer’s passion;
Autumn’s subtle slowing – and Winter’s retraction.
Cold; darness; ice-
Winter’s call to pay the Gifts of Summer’s price
Like the roots in the earth digging deep
And creatures obeying the call for hibernation sleep-
You too feel the need to withdraw and retract:
To retreat from the world and from it exact
The price it pays for your love that you gave
No more will you want any souls to save
Now is the time for me to pay Winter’s Price:
Too much energy expended means I’m burning ice
No more energy to give – no more to restore
Like sap freezing in every tree’s core.
I am Winter; I am The Crone,
I am the dark night, cold, alone
Ask nothing of me for I am not for giving
I am the lesson learned of the pain of Living.
Know well the Price she asks is worth the paying;
She is not cruel but wise and knowing –
For we must take back energy to our own selves
Rest, think, contemplate for our Future’s wealth.
Yet ’tis hard for me as an emotional being,
I feel the Love I kindled leaving
As Winter’s depth bites at my mind
Just as the moon affects the sea’s tides.

 

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Fallen Angel

This was a poem I posted a while back, and one I wrote over 10 years ago. It is still my favourite. The other day Meme kindly posted her song of my most popular poem, ‘The Blogger’s Prayer’. Today I am posting my personal favourite poem. 

 

Fallen Angel

Fallen Angel

Fallen Angel, cry you not:

Fate is fickle, Sin is not.

Devil-talk with honeyed words,

Homo-sapiens often turned

No thought to reason

Instinct over-ridden

For dream realisation –

Creation of your vision.

All for just one tiny lie

To society, yourself, and try

To say it’s not so bad,

The fuss’ll die I’m just a fad

There’ll be many more after me –

I’m not the only one who ate the apple from the tree.

From legs to serpent we downward slide

And falling ever since cannot be denied.

So God is gone from prayer and hope,

Society keeps pushing you to cope

Then you snap, start to rebel

And the devil comes sniffing ready to tell

How best to get back at those who’ve annoyed

Before you know it the devil’s new toy

And the light has faded – you’re all alone-

Old, angry, bitter, no way to atone

So in limbo you waver, caught by sin,

Reaching for Heaven with no way in.

Purgatory, a way unfurled –

That’s why I’m here; today, in this world.

 

 

Happy Anniversary to me – What a Year it’s been!

HAPPY 1st ANNIVERSARY TO WRITING

FOR JOY!

Here's a bunch of flowers for you

Here’s a bunch of flowers for you

This month is the 1st Birthday of this, my very first Blog – and wow, what a year it has been!

I’d like to share with you the Highlights of my year… it’s been a real Life-Changer!

October 2012 – Started my 1st Blog ‘Writing for joy’ – & re-discovered my joy of writing, found other wonderful, interesting blogs, & made lots of new online friends!

My little girl started school Sept 2012… and now is in her 2nd year of school. How time flies! She is a BRILLIANT reader 🙂

Somewhere during this year I started writing children’s books. Got several finished, and sent them off to Children’s Book Agents. So far rejected… still plan on sending to more agents and to keep working on them.

February 2013 – started my 2nd Blog with my partner, ‘The Eagle & The Serpent’, a continuing journey of our Spiritual experiences – & discovered even more wonderful friends & blogs

March 2013 – diagnosed with Depression & Anxiety. Made me rethink who I am & life in general. Shocked me, but I was determined to ‘handle’ it.

New Spiritual experiences – connected with Arianrhod… & have an ongoing Project with this Goddess, planning on writing a book.

Arianrhod

Arianrhod

May 2013 – reluctantly agreed to go on to anti-depressants. Was having counselling, did a ‘handling depression’ 4 week seminar.

August 2013 – Gave up my office job. Made the decision this was a major factor in my mental state, and so took the leap of faith and quit.

  • Started my professional Reiki business.

    Reiki Healing

    Reiki Healing

    – Started my Facebook page ‘Reiki Rise & Shine’ – and have met yet more like-minded & wonderful people.

    -Started a Linked In account.

    – Spiritual Life shifted, boosted… among other things, taking on the Shaman’s Path.

    – Sept 2013 – Took myself off the anti-depressants.

    – My little boy turned 2!

So there we go. A Year in the Life of Heidi, since Writing for Joy was born! A lot has certainly happened, and I have got through it all with ups and downs, smiles and tears… but with Joy for learning, discovering, exploring…

And now I know what I am capable of too.

Sadly this blog has been on a bit of a back burner recently what with everything else going on, but I am hoping to find time again soon to dedicate to my writing.

Yin-Yang & the World Tree

Yin-Yang & the World Tree

Thank you to all my followers who have been with me on this blogging journey, your Likes, comments, interactions and your own blogs have been a & an inspiration to me.

So how has your year been?

Light & Blessings to you all 

When Children Bring Joy

 

My wonderful children

My wonderful children

 

Watching, observing, smiling
My daughter in joy dancing
My son grinning choo-chooing
Ballet and tap and Rainbows group
So in the moment a 5-year old’s cheery mood
Trains and cars and birdies and slides
A nearly two year old laughing, running by
And in those moments, then I realise
That their joy is mine, my happiness rising high
The bleakness, the stress, the anxiety forgotten
In those snapshots of children’s fun frolicking
They drive me crazy, I can snarl and snap
Running around doing ten things off the bat
But then I see them together in giggles
Brother and sister broom-brooming on the trike with pedals
And with abandon I laugh my heart full to bursting
I am a proud mother and I thank my children for turning
A dreary day into something much greater –
Learning how to play and let nothing, nothing else matter.

For Sophie & Devyn xx

Bring Me Home

spring goddessThe domain of Compassion – encompassing all;
The domain of Hope – Always we wait in her hall.
The domain of Fear – can lead to the insane;
The domain of Relief – that leads back out again.
The domain of Rage – filled with anger and fury;
The domain of Peace – brimming with content, purely.
The domain of Love – her floor tiled Yin-Yang;
The domain of Loss – tears flowing in the sand.

Each Hall to be stepped into and through,
Each One to meet, greet, and confront you.
Each domain visited as we journey through life,
This path we all tread, a balance of joy and strife.
And so we laugh, and so we cry,
And so together we shall get by.
No domain do I fear for all hold a teaching wisdom:
With each passing one I find a deeper meaning.

Forward I travel knowing not what awaits,
You travel with me and so every trial I shall face
In courage, and knowing with pride
That the heart is strong and the soul abides
And should it falter and I lose my way,
Your hand in mine will my anxiety stay.
So I thank you, my love, and come sunshine or rain,
Together we boldly walk through each of Life’s domain.

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