Time, Energy & Writing

Dear All,

Season’s Greetings & Blessings Be!

Time energy diagram

I apologise for my long absence, Winter’s bite has bitten me deep, taking all of my energy and leaving me just wanting to huddle under the duvet & hibernate! Alas this is not a possibility with a young family and a business to run and, of course, Christmas nearly upon us. All of this, plus other goings-on, has shunted my creative Mind to the side, which is currently ‘shelved’, like that jar of yummy stuff that peeks out from the back of the cupboard, half-hidden, half-forgotten. Mentally, I want to write, I want my Creativity flowing again, and as I go about my day I come up with various ideas and lines and themes… but I cannot get the oomph together to actually sit down and craft something formed out of this. When I have the time, I don’t have the energy… and when I have the energy – yep, I don’t have the time! It’s incredibly frustrating, but I have learnt to ‘go with the energy flow’.

I hope that after the Solstice, once we reach and pass the shortest day of the year, and with Christmas behind rather than ahead of us, my time & energy will regain somewhat & I will have the right balance to pick up the metaphorical half-forgotten jar of yummy stuff from my mind, open the lid, scoop it out, and dollop a nice big portion on to the serving plate!

I hope you are all well and looking forward to your own Christmas celebrations, I am still trying to read Blogs, am catching up slowly, thank you for your understanding & forbearance!

Festive & Solstice Blessings,

Heidi 

Winter’s Price

Winter Crone

Bitter tears unspilled scorch the throat
Frozen anger burning, making me choke
Feeling bitter, cold, uncaring, tough,
I want to run, hide, give up – had enough.
Oh Child, child, can you not see –
Winter’s Beginning has a grasp upon thee
What you have been given in Summer and Spring
Has it’s Price that I am now exacting
The Crone whispers with Her knowing smile
Every year I forget Her Price for a while
She is the balance of Light and Energy,
Yet always Her Winter resides deep within me.
You are my Daughter; I am in your bones,
Your Heart and Mind thrum with the tones
Of Spring’s gentle opening, Summer’s passion;
Autumn’s subtle slowing – and Winter’s retraction.
Cold; darness; ice-
Winter’s call to pay the Gifts of Summer’s price
Like the roots in the earth digging deep
And creatures obeying the call for hibernation sleep-
You too feel the need to withdraw and retract:
To retreat from the world and from it exact
The price it pays for your love that you gave
No more will you want any souls to save
Now is the time for me to pay Winter’s Price:
Too much energy expended means I’m burning ice
No more energy to give – no more to restore
Like sap freezing in every tree’s core.
I am Winter; I am The Crone,
I am the dark night, cold, alone
Ask nothing of me for I am not for giving
I am the lesson learned of the pain of Living.
Know well the Price she asks is worth the paying;
She is not cruel but wise and knowing -
For we must take back energy to our own selves
Rest, think, contemplate for our Future’s wealth.
Yet ’tis hard for me as an emotional being,
I feel the Love I kindled leaving
As Winter’s depth bites at my mind
Just as the moon affects the sea’s tides.

 

SAMHAIN

Hallowe’en, Samhain, the Witches’ New Year,

The veil ‘tween worlds almost dissolved,

Eerie Night fills some with trepidation and fear

But this time may see Mystery and Wisdom unfold.

In celebration do we honour our dead;

And warmly greet blessed ancestors,

Cast the circle that no ghoul may within tread,

And seek vision in water’d cauldron a-Wester.*1

Old Crone, the wise-woman now holds the throne,

She of darkness, death and rebirth –

She is the Goddess of all that is unknown

As Nature herself withdraws down to earth.

Old Man, Lord of Shadows reigns

The Psycho-pomp Master of the ways*2

Ready to lead us through ethereal planes,

If we would but hearken to that which he says.

Dark and fearsome may this god and goddess seem

Yet the balance of Summer and Light and Abundance

They are the Holders of the spirit world unseen

Aiding us through the Void, in wisdom’s silence.

Hallowe’en, Samhain, the Witches’ New Year,

We honour and celebrate those gone-before,

Asking for wisdom and knowledge – truth sincere

With ritual and respect, following ye olde lore.

Lord of Shadows; Winter god

Lord of Shadows; Winter god

Blessed Samhain!

*(1) – “And seek vision in water’d cauldron a-Wester.”
This refers to the cast circle, where as part of the ritual, the cauldron is filled with water, placed in the West position, and is used as a scrying tool, looking for a vision within the water.
 
*(2) – “The Psycho-pomp Master of the ways”
Psycho-pomp is something or someone who guides the soul of those recently passed away to their resting place/the next world. They help the soul through the ‘limbo-world’, the place between life gone and the next appropriate world.

WordPress & One Year

Isn’t this sweet! I know I posted the Anniversary thing a while ago – if you missed it you can see it here - but I just got this from WP… aaahhhhh :-)

Happy Anniversary!

Speaking Paradox

A PARADOX?

If one knows one is lost, then one is no longer lost, but perhaps the only time one has truly found themselves.

 

Pieces of a puzzle

Pieces of a puzzle (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

 

WORD PLAY

Rebellion: Rebel Lion

Can a lion ‘rebel’? Is a lion not its nature; just ‘Is’? Does a lion ever ‘rebel’ against its Pride?

And how can one ‘re-bel’ when one cannot ‘bel’? 

 

 

GEMINI

How can one person feel so split, so divided amongst themself, when they have but one mind? How can the Inner & the Outer contain divisiveness when they share one body; one mind; one heart; one soul?

Not Yin-Yang: for Yin-Yang is Balance ever-changing, flowing recognition. But Gemini: split, divided, unfocussed – or different focus, through one pair of eyes. 

US divided highway sign

US divided highway sign (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Call Me Warrior

Originally posted on The Eagle and The Serpent:

 

For once I am breaking my own rule on this site, & am posting a poem – because this poem is absolutely What I Am, and fits with the spirit of this blog, too.  This poem is in my heart right now.

WolfSpirit

Do not mistake my kindness for weakness;

Do not think that as a Healer I am helpless,

My heart is open but not unprotected -

The danger has not gone undetected.

 

I will not falter and I shall not yield,

I accept this Power I can wield,

I fight not with a weapon in my hand -

It is a different battle for which I stand.

 

I understand there may be pain,

If I do not venture there will be no gain

To pretect my community, kith and kin -

Every battle shall I face and plan to win.

 

You see but do not…

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Fallen Angel

This was a poem I posted a while back, and one I wrote over 10 years ago. It is still my favourite. The other day Meme kindly posted her song of my most popular poem, ‘The Blogger’s Prayer’. Today I am posting my personal favourite poem. 

 

Fallen Angel

Fallen Angel

Fallen Angel, cry you not:

Fate is fickle, Sin is not.

Devil-talk with honeyed words,

Homo-sapiens often turned

No thought to reason

Instinct over-ridden

For dream realisation -

Creation of your vision.

All for just one tiny lie

To society, yourself, and try

To say it’s not so bad,

The fuss’ll die I’m just a fad

There’ll be many more after me –

I’m not the only one who ate the apple from the tree.

From legs to serpent we downward slide

And falling ever since cannot be denied.

So God is gone from prayer and hope,

Society keeps pushing you to cope

Then you snap, start to rebel

And the devil comes sniffing ready to tell

How best to get back at those who’ve annoyed

Before you know it the devil’s new toy

And the light has faded – you’re all alone-

Old, angry, bitter, no way to atone

So in limbo you waver, caught by sin,

Reaching for Heaven with no way in.

Purgatory, a way unfurled –

That’s why I’m here; today, in this world.

 

 

Blogging Prayer by reikiheidi

reikiheidi:

This post was one I did a while ago which was far & away my most popular… I was going to repost it as an anniversry celebration, but Mix&MatchMeme got there first with her singing my poem!
Wonderful!

Originally posted on Mix&MatchMeme:

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Last January I reblogged The Blogger’s Prayer.  I loved the words she wrote as did so many others.  reikiheidi has given me her blessing to record it and so I did.  

Please forgive me Heidi. 

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Happy Anniversary to me – What a Year it’s been!

HAPPY 1st ANNIVERSARY TO WRITING

FOR JOY!

Here's a bunch of flowers for you

Here’s a bunch of flowers for you

This month is the 1st Birthday of this, my very first Blog – and wow, what a year it has been!

I’d like to share with you the Highlights of my year… it’s been a real Life-Changer!

October 2012 – Started my 1st Blog ‘Writing for joy’ – & re-discovered my joy of writing, found other wonderful, interesting blogs, & made lots of new online friends!

My little girl started school Sept 2012… and now is in her 2nd year of school. How time flies! She is a BRILLIANT reader :-)

Somewhere during this year I started writing children’s books. Got several finished, and sent them off to Children’s Book Agents. So far rejected… still plan on sending to more agents and to keep working on them.

February 2013 – started my 2nd Blog with my partner, ‘The Eagle & The Serpent’, a continuing journey of our Spiritual experiences – & discovered even more wonderful friends & blogs

March 2013 – diagnosed with Depression & Anxiety. Made me rethink who I am & life in general. Shocked me, but I was determined to ‘handle’ it.

New Spiritual experiences – connected with Arianrhod… & have an ongoing Project with this Goddess, planning on writing a book.

Arianrhod

Arianrhod

May 2013 – reluctantly agreed to go on to anti-depressants. Was having counselling, did a ‘handling depression’ 4 week seminar.

August 2013 – Gave up my office job. Made the decision this was a major factor in my mental state, and so took the leap of faith and quit.

  • Started my professional Reiki business.

    Reiki Healing

    Reiki Healing

    - Started my Facebook page ‘Reiki Rise & Shine’ – and have met yet more like-minded & wonderful people.

    -Started a Linked In account.

    - Spiritual Life shifted, boosted… among other things, taking on the Shaman’s Path.

    - Sept 2013 – Took myself off the anti-depressants.

    - My little boy turned 2!

So there we go. A Year in the Life of Heidi, since Writing for Joy was born! A lot has certainly happened, and I have got through it all with ups and downs, smiles and tears… but with Joy for learning, discovering, exploring…

And now I know what I am capable of too.

Sadly this blog has been on a bit of a back burner recently what with everything else going on, but I am hoping to find time again soon to dedicate to my writing.

Yin-Yang & the World Tree

Yin-Yang & the World Tree

Thank you to all my followers who have been with me on this blogging journey, your Likes, comments, interactions and your own blogs have been a & an inspiration to me.

So how has your year been?

Light & Blessings to you all 

Expression and Music

It’s true that music lifts your soul

A bit of a different post today, because of the mood I am in.

My life has changed recently. I’m no longer employed, doing a job that just ‘pays the bills’ and ‘ticking along’ and being what I now realise was actually unhappy.

I never thought I was a ‘Little Miss Susie Homemaker’ type. I would sneer and mock – I’m an independent feminist woman! Housework? Spending all day looking after babies and having dinner ready when the master comes home?! Hah! In fact my partner would probably have hysterics if my name & ‘Susie Homemaker’ were mentioned in the same sentence.

And yet… I am at home. Officially I am self-employed and running a business, though I’m still waiting for those paying customers. In the meantime, I’m at home with the not-quite little one, doing the school run, and keeping house. And you know what? I’m happy! (16 year old self shudders and turns away in horror). But I am, there’s no denying it. What I’m doing I’m doing for me and my family. I can choose how to spend my days… in relation to kiddies of course, but that still leaves a lot of scope. I’m not stressing about the school run, or the housework – because I have plenty of time in which to fit everything in. And I get to play with my kids, instead of feeling like I’m rushing around trying to do everything at once.

This happiness has resulted in me singing around the house more and listening to music. The tv has been turned off. I used to have the tv on pretty much all the time, not because I watched it, I’d just got used to it being ‘background’. We occasionally listened to music… but now… now it fills my soul. It’s an intrisic part of my happiness. And it is, I have discovered, absolutely true that music lifts your spirits – or if your spirits are already lifted, emphasises/enhances/complements said spirits.

I never really know what sort of music I am ‘into’. I’m an eclectic, and will listen to pretty much anything, but I’ve never really been a collector, or a specific fan of this person or that group.

But that is one group, and one song in particular that is ME, that lifts me immediately every time I hear it, and transports me back to the first time I heard it, live at a festival, just over 10 years ago now. This piece of music is everything to me: it gets into my very soul, sends shivers down my spine, makes my feet move and my brain tingle.

I don’t know how many people have heard of this band, maybe Australians have as that’s where they’re from – The Cat Empire. It is a mix of Jazz, a bit of reggae, and other stuff to that is just WOWee! I LOVE LOVE LOVE it. If I was to define myself by music, THIS would be it. I encourage you to listen to it – listen to the words as well as the music – as a poet, the words, to me, are just as important as the music, and I LOVE the message here!

“Our weapons were our instruments, made of timber & steel – we’ll never yield to conformity but stood like kings – in a chariot that’s riding on a record wheel…”

(oh, – be patient… the intro’s a little odd, but trust me, its worth waiting for!)

The Cat Empire – The Chariot – YouTube.

So there you go. That is me, as defined by music.

I haven’t listened to this song for months… but I put it in again the other day, fitting with my current uplifted mood. And nothing makes me happier!

Do you have a song/artist/group/band that you feels defines you?

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